Years later

still the pain is strong

like on the day

Going back to Cappo Testa holding onto

a bottle of Grappa. As soon as I sit down

I can’t help but break out in floods, there is still

this pain in my heart indescribable and strong

on the inside making my whole body ache

and overcoming every part of my psyche and self

This pain in my chest

has me tight in its fist

It is not even sadness just pure, deep pain

I know where it comes from, and I know it will never leave

In moments like this I can not let go and just embrace it

let it take me because it is a part of myself

and nothing can change

that it just how it is.